it's been a while, so...a belated happy holidays to everyone and may all ur 2007 be nothin less than FABULOUS

so...i'm ok, i'm ok, cuz even when i'm not ok, it's ok, cuz it's perfectly ok to not be ok, cuz it happens, that happens and it's ok cuz u'll find a way to pick urself up and anticipate the next fall, so till the next time that i'm not ok, i'm ok.....

i suppose i've always thought of myself as the type of person that just goes with the flow
but lately i find myself analyzing way too much...
trying to hard to figure out the kind of person that i am
only to drown in confusion, even more

since i've come to truly know myself
getting comfortable in my own skin
having real confidence as a whole
i've always wanted to just BE
just do whatever the hell i wanted to do
cuz i honestly don't give a shiet about what "other" people think of me
and i guess i've been pretty good at stickin to that
cuz people believe that about me...

the more these ramdom thought float in my head
the more i tend to over analyze things, situations, people, myself
only to find that, i am, in fact, BOUND
bound by morals
bound by family
bound by relationships and friendships
bound by potentials and predispositions
bound by the infinite hypocrisy and contradictions
bound by all the insecurities and fears of being someone that i maybe don't want to be...
HUH??!!
exactly....

so...
in conclusion
i need freedom
to be free
and i know you can't possible be really free, not in all aspects
cuz somehow you'll always be connected to certain things and certain people
but i need to be free
free from the things that i can be free of at this stage in my life
i need to just break the bindings
and be free
be free to just go with the flow
and be my youthful self
to just GO with the flow, roll with the punches
go
flow
so....
i guess whoever's in my way...
i'll just have to sweep you up along for the ride
cuz ur in the flow
and i'm just going
with the flow

we just all have to find ways to make ourselves happy